I've been worrying a lot over the past week about how this pregnancy will turn out. Having three miscarriages leads to paranoia in a time when most would be excited and at least entertaining the idea of planning for the future. I am trying to be happy, but at the moment I seem to punish myself with thoughts of doom whenever I even consider a positive outcome.
My first two hCG tests were good (88-206 in two days) and my doctor said that I didn't need to repeat them and that I would have my first ultrasound on the 15th of February (It would have been the 17th, but we are going to be out of town). I thought I could keep my hopes high with the two positive tests results, but by Monday I was losing my mind. There was inconsolable crying followed by my husband's very sweet offer to call the doctor to ask if I could go in for another test. My hCG levels came back at 940ish. I can't remember the exact figure since I was so freakin' happy. That happiness was short-lived because when I talked to my doctor and he confirmed that we probably won't see a heartbeat before when go on our trip, which means I will be worrying the whole time we are gone, arrrrrrrrrg (like a frustrated pirate). My doctor suggested that we continue to monitor my hCG every 48 hours since this will be the best measure of how the pregnancy is progressing. I have my next test tomorrow.
Things are going well so far and I have no reason to be worried, except that I have been through this before and it has never turned out well. I don't know how to get past this, but I am surely trying. Any pointers from anyone still reading my blog?
My first two hCG tests were good (88-206 in two days) and my doctor said that I didn't need to repeat them and that I would have my first ultrasound on the 15th of February (It would have been the 17th, but we are going to be out of town). I thought I could keep my hopes high with the two positive tests results, but by Monday I was losing my mind. There was inconsolable crying followed by my husband's very sweet offer to call the doctor to ask if I could go in for another test. My hCG levels came back at 940ish. I can't remember the exact figure since I was so freakin' happy. That happiness was short-lived because when I talked to my doctor and he confirmed that we probably won't see a heartbeat before when go on our trip, which means I will be worrying the whole time we are gone, arrrrrrrrrg (like a frustrated pirate). My doctor suggested that we continue to monitor my hCG every 48 hours since this will be the best measure of how the pregnancy is progressing. I have my next test tomorrow.
Things are going well so far and I have no reason to be worried, except that I have been through this before and it has never turned out well. I don't know how to get past this, but I am surely trying. Any pointers from anyone still reading my blog?
I wish I had pointers for you... The best I can offer are my positive thoughts headed your way! Hoping for good numbers!
ReplyDeleteThank you Jamie, that is very sweet of you. I did my last hCG test Wednesday and my numbers are more than doubling in 48 hours. I really hope this pregnancy will actually work.
ReplyDeleteYay! That's great news! I'm currently 7 weeks 4 days pregnant with my 2nd baby. I have PCOS and have to do Progesterone suppositories for the first trimester. I can't wait for an ultrasound just to make sure everything is going as it is supposed to! I wish you the best!
ReplyDeleteWhen do you get to have your first ultrasound?
ReplyDeleteI have an appt on the 20th and I'm hoping for one then! With my daughter I had an ultrasound at my first appt at 5.5 weeks, then again at 7.5 weeks due to a scare. This time around it feels like I'm waiting forever :-/. How about you?
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