Monday, January 30, 2012

Prometrium is Gross

     So this is where you find out that I over-share, and that no information is TOO much . . . at least for me.  Growing up as the daughter of two medical doctors leads to a lot of gross over-sharing, because really no topic is unacceptable for dinner conversation, let alone a public blog.  My parents used the proper names for male and female genitalia and certainly would never use some of the names that I do to refer to my lady parts (even my husband gives me funny looks).  I'll try to keep this technical, but it is hard since I have a pretty foul mouth.
     I've heard that progesterone in oil injections are terrible and I am not going to try to compare my vaginal progesterone suppositories to those awful injections, but if nothing else the suppositories are gross.  They are supposed to be one of the better ways to get a little progesterone in your system and since I had low progesterone during one of my miscarriages, number two to be specific, the doctor recommends it. 
     My really amazing husband inserts the vaginal suppositories for me after I am all ready for bed so I don't have to walk even 10 steps into the bedroom and can therefore remain in a prone position for at least 7 hours.  Perhaps you would think that this is a little bit sexy, but I can assure you it is not.  We started inserting the suppositories two days after our IUI, and I just hate them.  If I sit up too quickly in the morning or have to pee in the middle of the night the stuff just comes out of me.  You can feel it!  Then I am always worried that it wasn't "in" long enough and that too much leaked out.  The paranoia sets in and I am sure that I have destroyed all hope of a baby this cycle.  Has anyone out there had to use these gross things?  Any tips or pointers?  Funny stories?  Please feel free to over-share, since we all now know that there is very little that totally weirds me out.

     As a side note: my lower abdomen/uterus hurts, mostly when I sit down, but it is not crampy.  I don't know if this is a result of the Prometrium or perhaps an early sign that that little sucker did actually implant (this is probably overly optimistic).  Any thoughts?

Thursday, January 26, 2012

To Test, or Not to Test

     Really in my case this is a decision between testing early, and REALLY early.  I just can't help it.  I am the type that really likes instant gratification.  When I want something, I want it, and I want it now!!!  (I think I am turning into a blueberry).
     Some women wait until the first day of the their missed period and don't test a day sooner.  While others test long before a positive pregnancy test is even possible.  I usually don't test before 10 days post ovulation, since I have read that it is nearly impossible to detect a pregnancy before this time.  This is not to say that I am not tempted.  Sometimes if I wake up and my stomach feels a bit off i'll go take a test.  I'll admit this is a bit crazy, but I've never claimed not to be. 
     Also, I hate to say it, but I have a feeling that I am not pregnant this month.  I don't know why, and perhaps it is a bit of the crazy coming in, but I just can't believe that this would work on my first cycle with my new RE. 

Monday, January 23, 2012

IUI Complete

My IUI went well on Friday.  It is hard to believe we could be on our way to being pregnant.  My husband keeps looking at my belly and saying "baby in the belly" in a sing songy voice.  It is pretty funny. 

The procedure itself was more painful than I remembered and my ovaries hurt and felt ginormous all morning.  The pain seemed to go away almost completely before the IUI so I assume I ovulated just before the procedure, which is good.  I really don't want to go through all those injections again, but I know many people have been through far worse. 

I would love to hear from anyone who comes across this blog.  What is your story (of course, only if you want to share)?  Feel free to send me a message or comment.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

IUI #3

     So, we want a baby, but can't seem to get one to stick.  We are about to have our third IUI, with our second RE, and are hopefully on our way to our fourth pregnancy.  We have had three early miscarriages all ending around the 6-week mark.  This whole process is stressful, sad, and often infuriating.
I don't really know why I want to start this blog now, but it will certainly keep me busy during the upcoming two-week wait.  I am not a very good writer and I probably won't have anything to say that someone else hasn't said before.  I don't even know that I will share this will my friends and family, but sometimes I think it feels good to write things down and to share, with no one in particular, how you feel. 
So here is my story . . . the brief-ish version:
     I just turned 30 and my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for three years this April.  Our marriage is a product of online dating and we have been happily (except when I am on fertility drugs and I want to rip his head off) married since 2008.
     We first got pregnant in April of 2010, but I started bleeding and shortly after miscarried.  We decided to see an RE in January 2011 and I was diagnosed with PCOS.  My Mom (a doctor) has long told me that she thought I had PCOS, but failed to mention that along with my awesome beard/moustache, having trouble losing weight and VERY irregular period that I would also potentially have a lot of trouble getting pregnant.  Thanks Mom.  Anyway, so by March of 2011 (on my second Clomid/IUI cycle) I was pregnant, but not for long.  I realized through this miscarriage that I hated my RE and that I needed to take a step back and maybe just talk to my OB/GYN about doing Clomid/no IUI cycles with her, since we do not have any male factor fertility issues.  My OB/GYN was wonderful and supportive and we got pregnant again, in July of 2011, after just one cycle back on Clomid. I immediately miscarried.
In December of 2011 we decided it was time for a new RE, and we found one.  I was hesitant to see a male doctor, but I figured that it was time to get over my fear of male doctors and just do it.  He is amazing (so far) and it doesn't hurt that he is ridiculously good-looking.
     I have now been tested for everything under the sun and the only other thing the doctors have found is that I have a slight chromosomal abnormality.  I have a pericentric inversion of the 9th chromosome.  It is one of the the most common abnormalities and is also considered a normal variant.  There doesn't seem to be a lot of info out there on this particular chromosomal abnormality, but you can look it up on Wikipedia if you want to know the basics.  The doctor isn't sure if it is affecting our fertility, but it could be. As a bonus I also have hypothyroidism, which seems to now be controlled, but this may have also contributed to some of our miscarriages.
     Here's to hoping for pregnancy #4, and baby #1, and I promise to update as often as possible and to not fall off the face of the earth.